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Autistics Speaking Day – November 1, 2011

By on November 1, 2011 in Autism

Today is “Autistics Speaking Day“, in place of what might have been the second “Communication Shutdown Day”. Sound like quite the conflicting sort of turn of events?

Last year, a group out of Australia started “Communication Shutdown Day” on November 1st where neurotypical people (those without Autism) were to sign off from Facebook, Twitter and other social sites in an effort to better understand what it is like to be non-communicative, or unheard or… well, autistic.

With all the best intentions in the world, this idea made very little sense to most people since shutting down in order to speak out was a bit of an oxymoron and also, social sites were proving to be the first real way in which Autistics could finally have a voice in the first place.

I wrote a piece last year about why I won’t be shutting down for November 1st, as did many others.. and so, it would seem, no real effort was made to continue to the project on for a second year.

ASDayBy Autistics, For Autistics

What did come of the shutdown day project, however, was a whole new day in which, autistics do the opposite of shutdown… they speak out. A day in which autistics share their struggles, celebrations, strengths, weaknesses and experiences in general with as many people that will listen.

That’s a much better use of a day, if you ask me. In fact, that would be a much better use of every day. But obviously, trying to give every day a name is a little tougher than you’d think.

Still though, a day where autistics can share with the world is a great start and far better than asking others to stop talking…. or is it?

Contradiction or merging of ideas?

Still though, when I stop and think about it… is it really that much of a contrast?

The shutdown day project asked that non-autistics stop visiting their social networks and to go silent… which all by itself really is a dumb thing to do.

However, in conjunction with “Autistics Speaking Day”… it’s starting to actually make a lot more sense to me.

If autistics can have a day where they can speak their mind, tell their tales, share their experiences and speak their mind… free of judgments or criticisms from others… well, the whole thing starts to make a lot more sense.

Maybe if “shutdown” was changed to “shut up and listen”, then the two days truly would be the same thing, rather than opposites. Instead of abandoning social networks, if we were encouraged to seek out social networks and find as many autistics as we can that are sharing something today and just listened rather than putting in our own 2 cents…. maybe November 1st really wouldn’t be all that different from what it was originally supposed to be… maybe it’s just an extension of it.

Perhaps if autistics make an extra, and sometimes difficult, effort to open themselves up to the world and share their experiences and thoughts on Autism, and everyone else made an effort to set aside an hour or two to seek those autistics out, and really just listened, we would finally have a day that made perfect sense.

So, if you have Autism, I encourage you to take part in “Autistics Speaking Day” today, November 1st.

And if you do not have Autism, I encourage you to seek out some autistics on Twitter, Facebook or even in good ole Google search and spend a little time reading today.

The more that is shared and the more people listen, the greater the opportunity for understanding and acceptance for all people with Autism.

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Recognition for the caregivers in the Autism community

By on September 27, 2011 in Autism

There are a lot of discussions all over the place about non-disabled parents of disabled children, disabled parents of disabled children and those that are disabled without disabled children… who can and can’t understand what, who can and can’t advocate what, who’s voice holds more weight… on and on and on.

These things will be worked out over time, hopefully all mutually agreeable and beneficial… a world of peace, love and happiness for all on the horizon.

However, those not being discussed, and I think really should be, are the care givers.

Not part of a community?

caregiverOne day, discussing Autism related issues on Twitter, a woman replied with a rather insightful comment and then was quick to apologize, as she really had no place to get involved in such a discussion.

You see, she is not autistic nor does she have any children with Autism.

What she does have is an amazing amount of love and wisdom within her that had, for the most part up, until that point, been quiet.

As a woman who has cared for many children with Autism and continues to care for children with Autism, she does not feel as though she is a part of the Autism community.

She reads all of the books, the studies, blog posts, she attends seminars and even went to school specifically to do what she does… but she feels that she has no voice because it’s not her place.

To me, that’s not just a shame, that’s a tragedy.

What one has vs what one does not

You see, I have a great deal of respect for those with Autism and those who have children with Autism because they have a lot thrust on them against their will. They are kind of thrown into the deep end of a life that they likely didn’t expect and may not even want (some of them).

They are forced to educate themselves, to research everything they can… they even have to learn to love themselves in ways that many people don’t.

I’m talking about both the parents and the autistics themselves. It’s a struggle for both. It’s big, it’s scary and it’s wonderful too… it’s different for everyone but it’s big all the same.

Care givers (most of them) don’t have that. They don’t have the life changing diagnosis for themselves or their children. They don’t have that cycle of denial, acceptance and all the other emotions and epiphanies that many of us have.

A care giver has to want it, they have to love and they have to need it.

For many parents and even autistics, this will likely be a very foreign concept as most people would never want it, much less need it.

But these care givers do. They do the research and the seminars, they do the schooling and the reading because it is what they want to do and it’s what they love to do.

When it’s not you…

For me, personally, when I really stop and think about it, I’m in awe. Because I know that I wouldn’t have the same patience level for other people’s children… especially if I didn’t already have an autistic child myself. I also know how I feel when I meet other parents that not only parent differently but do things I simply can not agree with, do things that are detrimental to their child’s development…. these care givers face that almost daily.

Care givers have to work with those parents, they have to deal with the non-verbal, aggressive, non-toilet trained children that are not their own and that have parents that either don’t understand, don’t know what to do, don’t care or… hopefully, do all the right things but simply need help.

And yes, I know you’re going to hate the “deal with” part of my last statement but remember, this is a care giver who loves those children. But it’s still something they have to deal with. It’s not their children, it’s not a life that was thrust on them.

I often write about how much patience I have thanks to my son, how we all become such better people thanks to our children and all of the wonderful things that having an autistic child can teach you…

But these care givers have more patience than I do… and they already knew all of those wonderful things before I did… it’s in them. It’s always been in them. They always were the better person that I’ve been working at becoming.

What’s in a voice?

I am very proud that woman spoke up and I am very happy she did too.

No, she is not autistic and not a parent with an autistic child, she’ll never “truly know” what it’s like to have Autism or a child with Autism… but that’s what makes her perspective an important one. One that I value.

Perhaps she will never blog about having Autism nor will she blog about what it’s like to raise an autistic child but when she does talk about Autism, in what ever form she does…. I’ll be sure to listen.

Because she came to us… and because she loves it. And without her and people like her, we wouldn’t have come as far as we have.

She sees children learn to speak, she sees children do amazing things! She works with them, she plays with them, she hurts when they get hurt and she celebrates their victories.

In conclusion

What I’m trying to say is, if you’re a care giver but feel it’s not your place to give any input or an opinion… I’ll listen to you.

Even if we end up disagreeing on something, I’ll listen to you.

Chances are though, I’ll likely learn something and I’d hate to miss it.

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Who has a right to talk about Autism?

By on September 17, 2011 in Autism

Recently, Rob from Lost and Tired wrote a blog post called “We’re on the same team….right?” which, the title pretty much speaks for itself. And I’ve often written about how it seems that no matter what you say, someone will object to it. Someone will be offended and someone will hate you for it.

Sadly, that’s just the reality of putting yourself out there. People have differing opinions, and the more readers you get, the more likely you are to find them.

However, more and more recently, I’ve been encountering people with Autism that feel that no one has a right to even mention Autism without having Autism themselves.

Who has right to talk about Autism?

no voiceIn the post I mentioned, one person commented, basically stating that if you don’t have Autism, you can’t talk about it. If you went to check it out, you saw my reply, which wasn’t very professional but as I wrote and wrote, I quickly realized that I couldn’t possibly fit all of my thoughts into one comment on a blog post.

The comment in question is this:

i have the exact same issue – to me – people who DO NOT have autism have absolutely NO RIGHT to OPEN THEIR MOUTH because they do not have it themselves – and do not know crap about what it is like to have the condition, the social rejection of it, and so much more that it makes my head spin. i have the exact same issue with people who go to college to teach special needs / special ed when they ARE NOT special needs themselves !!!

I don’t know if he was being serious or referring to how some people have been in the past, but I have encountered this sort of thing enough myself. So either way, I thought I’d write about it here.

While I do understand the sentiment, I do understand where this person is coming from, I also can’t help but think that this is extremely counter productive, hypocritical and even rude in a way. Now don’t take the last few parts and skip the rest, as I said.. I do understand where he is coming from and why he’d say it. I just want to be able to explain why that’s not a healthy stance to take.

Parents

First of all, to tell parents that they can’t speak for their children is likely to get you into a lot of trouble. Parents are very protective of their children, it’s an animal kingdom thing, it’s instinctual and no one had better tell a parent that they have no right to speak up or protect their child.

I want for my child to not be bullied, I want for people to accept my child for who he is, I want for my child to have a fair chance in school, work and life in general… I want the best possible life for my child.

To tell me that I can’t try to speak up for that, simply because he has Autism and I don’t, is a bit rude.

Am I to sit on my butt, let him be bullied at school, learn nothing and have no help…. and just hope for the best? Because I have no right to speak up?

Understanding and Acceptance

The whole goal of raising awareness is such that people that know nothing about Autism can not only understand it, but also come to accept the people that have it. Meaning more jobs, better services, less judgments.

But how can people be expected to do that if they have no right to ever discuss it? How can there ever be an understanding? If only autistics can understand it, then there’s no point in explaining it or raising awareness of it and if there’s no point in that, then there will never be acceptance.

True, most people will never truly understand and it’s also true that most people will never fully accept it… but is that really what is needed? Or is it good enough that people understand it enough to be more accepting, enough to stop judging those that are different… enough to stop bullying or denying them based on what they don’t have and may never fully understand?

No thanks, I don’t need your army to win the war

While I do rather hate the war analogy that some people make in reference to Autism (usually in reference to pharma companies), but in this case, I think it fits… in the war on awareness, understanding and acceptance.

I mean, think about it. At 1 in 110 (or so, depending on where you are), you have a relatively small portion of the population fighting for services, acceptance and a fair chance getting what others take for granted, such as less judgments, struggles, bullying and so forth.

But if you could recruit your parents, grandparents, other loved ones, friends, family, charities, teachers and others to help you, to fight with you…. wouldn’t you want that? In fact, wouldn’t that be exactly what it is that you’re fighting for?

Not for them to necessarily understand “exactly” what you’re going through but to support you, to back you up and to speak up to reach all of the people that you can’t reach yourself?

Neurodiversity

One time, a person with Autism suggested (more or less inquired really) if it would be a good idea to have two groups, one with Autism being self advocates and one for others, such as parents. Which, on the surface makes some sense as people with Autism feel as though they’re foreigners to us and we can’t possibly understand exactly what it means to have Autism….  however, I feel that it kind of defeats the purpose of neurodiversity.

The whole point is, I think, to bring different people, who think diffrently, together and be considered equals with differences. That we accept each other, without judgment, that neither is superior, neither is inferior… we’re simply the same but different, if that makes any sense.

So to split us up based on our differences, in an effort to unite us… seems counter productive.

Awareness for all

To achieve the goal of learning about Autism, in understanding how it affects people (quite differently I might add), how to reduce the bullying, judgments and struggles of people with Autism… we must all speak out.

Positive, supportive and unified. Working together toward a common goal.

If you have Autism, you have to remember… that special ed teacher that speaks up, that parent that fights for services, that charity that raises money… it’s for you. It may be misguided sometimes, it may be without a complete understanding and it may even be wrong in some cases, but it’s the best they can do, for you and for all with Autism… especially their loved ones.

We all have a right to want what is best for the ones we love. We all have a right to wish for less hunger, less war, less racism and all of the things that we, as humans should be over by now. That includes discrimination towards people with special needs.

Whether we are in war, starving or are disabled ourselves… we all have a right to speak, because if we don’t, we are nothing.

What I’m trying to say is…

While I do believe that we all have the right to fight for what we believe in, especially when loved ones are involved, what I’m really trying to say is…. please don’t shut us out.

Please let us help. Yes, we’ll falter along the way… we’re not perfect and, as is abundantly clear, we can’t possibly know what it’s truly like.. however, as parents and loved ones, we’re the closest thing you have for bridging the gap between two groups that really never should have been separate groups in the first place.

Don’t ask us to hope that our children will one day be able, willing and strong enough to fight for acceptance. It’s our greatest wish that one day, they will… but we can’t possibly put that burden on them… especially if we spend our time together on the sidelines. If we are unable to speak, that is what our children will learn from us. If we are unable to stand up for what we believe in, we can’t possibly force that responsibility on our children.

Autism is your world. My child is my world.. and my child has Autism.

Let us help our children. Let us help you. And forgive us our mistakes.

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Guilt, grieving and other emotions when your child has Autism

By on September 13, 2011 in Autism

There’s a lot of talk around the Autism community lately over emotions.. such as whether or not there should be a grieving period.. or whether or not we should be feeling any guilt.

“Should be”….  such a funny concept in a world of differences.

In my experience

emotionsI can only tell you about how it went for me… what I felt and didn’t feel. Because the truth is that everyone is different.

I have a pretty typical story in that I had heard of Autism but didn’t know much beyond that until I started to look for answers as to why my son acted the way he did. A lot of repetition, lining things up, aversion to a lot of foods and so on and so forth, had me reading website after website to see what it might be.

I recognized these signs rather early on and was quick to research all that I could… and despite a lot of conflicting stories, I can honestly say that I never once felt guilty about it. I never once thought that there was something that my wife or I did wrong or that there was something that may have caused my son’s Autism.

It wasn’t a foreign concept to me though, as family member after family member and friend after friend asked if we knew what had caused it, or if we were afraid that we had done something to cause it.

As for grieving… I think it’s funny how people have different interpretations as to what grieving is. Most people think that it means breaking down into a crying fit and feeling complete remorse and being depressed for a while, etc, etc.

For me, I think of grieving as simply being worried about the future, about missing the things that you can’t do with your child, or things you won’t be able to do… thinking about potential bullies, potential other issues that may come around (seizures, allergies, diets, etc).

No, I’ve never broken down crying and no, I have no problem what so ever with who my child is or who he will become.. but a small part of me does grieve from time to time. I still want more for him… more that Autism will make very improbable (not impossible).

“Should Be” does not mean right or wrong

What I try to tell people is that there is no right or wrong way to feel. Granted, I do feel that feeling guilty serves no purpose and benefits no one… but it’s not wrong to feel guilty. If anything, the only thing I could imagine as being wrong is if you felt nothing.. if there was no mixed bag of emotions. Because hearing that your child has Autism is a bit of a big deal. It can change the course of the rest of your life.

There is just so much emotional baggage that comes along with an Autism diagnosis that we can’t possibly all feel the exact same things at the exact same time. Some of us might not feel guilty, some of us might not grieve. Some of us, sadly, won’t ever be able to accept it.

It’s not right or wrong, it’s just different.

Fear of the unknown

For most of us, Autism is a very big unknown that can take all those plans for the future that you had and make your future into an unknown as well.

Unknowns are scary. We fear them. We try to justify them, give meaning to them, master them… we try to find the cause of it.

Eventually, hopefully.. we come to accept them. Not just Autism, but unknowns in general. There are just some things we can’t control, that throw our lives off course and we can either feel guilty about it, grieve over it or… accept it.

If you read posts by people that are grieving, don’t judge them because you didn’t grieve. If you read posts by people that feel guilty, as if they are certain that they did something wrong. Reassure them but don’t judge them.  They don’t really need to feel like they’re doing something wrong by feeling like they’re doing something wrong.. ya know?

Everyone is different and as much as we’d like for everyone to hate the people we hate, to fear what we fear, to accept what we accept and so on and so on.. it’s just not going to happen.

We all deal with life differently. It may seem that some people deal better than others, but the truth is that we just deal with it differently.

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The discrimination you hate but should really learn to appreciate

By on September 7, 2011 in Autism

It’s back to school time which raises a lot of emotions as well as a lot of concerns. Rightfully so.. it’s a rough transition to go through.

As such, the media lights up and bloggers all start to sing in harmony about the troubles, struggles and issues pertaining to “back to school” time.

One such issue that I’ve been hearing a lot about is discrimination… not that some children discriminate against other children but that of the schools or teachers themselves.

The Problem

What we find is that a lot of schools or day care providers are unwilling to even accept children with special needs, or if they do, they do not treat those children fairly. They don’t provide them the leniency they require or the special attention they need.

In some cases, the children aren’t cared for properly nor treated properly either.

Welcomed Discrimination

discriminationIt’s rather painful to accept but honestly, I’d rather that children were not accepted into schools or day cares if those people are not trained, not equipped or otherwise unable to treat those children properly.

When I read about the nine year old that was locked in a room and then hand cuffed by police while at day care, I stop and wonder… could it have turned out very differently? Not better… but differently? Think about this:

If the day care provider had refused to take the child in the first place, would there have been a news story about discrimination against Autism?

Perspective Discrimination

I read all the time about Canada refusing to let in children that have Autism, sometimes the whole family is denied. That is so very wrong. It angers me.

But it’s not that they are turning them away that makes me upset. It’s that Canada recognizes it’s own inability to care for any more children than it already has and is doing nothing about it.

In fact, Canada is unable to care for the number of children it already has… current wait lists are proof enough of that.

But now, when people try to bring their children into the country, they’re turned away because the government deems them a burden on an already failing system.

And it is. It’s failing. It’s not keeping up with demands.

And it knows it. It turns away children because of it.

And it’s doing nothing about it.

The schools are trying, but the funding isn’t there. The police are trying, but the funding isn’t there.

There is discrimination but it’s not by the teachers, or the day care providers, or the schools or the police… it’s by a system that knows that it isn’t doing a good enough job and yet does nothing about it.

Conclusion

So when a child is turned away… don’t get mad at them. They’re doing their best with what they have and they know that if they do take your child, your child won’t receive the service that they need and then that will be what gets into the news.

When that teacher or day care or school fails that child, there will be hell to pay and it won’t be the government that takes it, it’ll be them. Despite there attempts at doing their best and getting themselves in over their heads… they’ll falter because they don’t know any better, or don’t have the resources, or the training or man power… a child will get hurt, or lost or put into hand cuffs…. and they’ll be dragged through the coals for it.

It’s either that…  or discriminate against Autism.

I’ll pass on the hand cuffs… I’ll take the discrimination.

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