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Paint your own Autism picture

By on November 13, 2011 in Autism

One thing that happens to me a lot, and I see this happen to others quite often around the internet as well, is that I’ll make a statement and quickly be corrected… sometimes I’m even told what to say.

For example, when I say on Twitter that Autism is neither a gift nor a curse, there’s usually someone that feels the need to correct me.  When I compare Autism to a rainbow, even making sure to include the stormy aspects… I’ve had people be downright mad that I’d compare it to something wonderful. Because to them, Autism is anything but.

I can understand that, to a point. But at the same time, I don’t think it’s anyone’s place to tell others how they should feel about something. Especially if it’s something that affects themselves or their loved ones as well.

The Incas

I don’t know a whole lot about the Inca Empire… but I did find their art work, sculptures and other artifacts most intriguing when I saw them at the museum.

What I found most interesting, however, was that there was no one artifact or piece of art work that could tell historians or archaeologists the whole story of what life was like for the Inca people.

The only real way to truly know is to take the whole tour. You go through the Inca exhibit and see so much, you learn so much and then… even then… you wonder at what it must have truly been like. Because you still don’t know!

You get bits and pieces… lots of bits and pieces… you get theories, you get stories… and you learn so much… but you still don’t know.

Museum… internet… whatever

Today, right now, our museum is the internet. This blog, that you’re reading now, is my contribution to the Autism exhibit. It’s not the whole exhibit, it’s just a piece of artwork on the wall (not very great artwork but it’s there all the same).

And I see other people’s contributions all over the place that compliment my piece, others contradict my piece, some are a whole other category of interest from mine… perhaps theirs could be considered the artifacts to my art pieces.

The fact is, there’s a lot to see and read and experience and while it gives people a lot to go on, and may give people a lot of theories, it’s still not the whole story.

But only by us sharing, all of us, can people get closer to really knowing… to truly understanding.

paintingMy Painting

Perhaps you don’t agree with my painting on the wall… maybe you don’t have any storm clouds in the distance behind a beautiful rainbow… and that’s ok too. That doesn’t make your art work any less important to the exhibit.

It just makes it a part of the story.

While it’s true that our museum could really use a better curator to organize and make things easier to find, it’s still a very wonderful exhibit with some really touching stories and people to discover.

Correct me if you feel the need to, but that won’t stop me from painting my Autism picture the way I see it.

And I hope no one ever stops you from painting your artwork the way you see it.

The visitors to our museum depend on it.

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Autistics Speaking Day – November 1, 2011

By on November 1, 2011 in Autism

Today is “Autistics Speaking Day“, in place of what might have been the second “Communication Shutdown Day”. Sound like quite the conflicting sort of turn of events?

Last year, a group out of Australia started “Communication Shutdown Day” on November 1st where neurotypical people (those without Autism) were to sign off from Facebook, Twitter and other social sites in an effort to better understand what it is like to be non-communicative, or unheard or… well, autistic.

With all the best intentions in the world, this idea made very little sense to most people since shutting down in order to speak out was a bit of an oxymoron and also, social sites were proving to be the first real way in which Autistics could finally have a voice in the first place.

I wrote a piece last year about why I won’t be shutting down for November 1st, as did many others.. and so, it would seem, no real effort was made to continue to the project on for a second year.

ASDayBy Autistics, For Autistics

What did come of the shutdown day project, however, was a whole new day in which, autistics do the opposite of shutdown… they speak out. A day in which autistics share their struggles, celebrations, strengths, weaknesses and experiences in general with as many people that will listen.

That’s a much better use of a day, if you ask me. In fact, that would be a much better use of every day. But obviously, trying to give every day a name is a little tougher than you’d think.

Still though, a day where autistics can share with the world is a great start and far better than asking others to stop talking…. or is it?

Contradiction or merging of ideas?

Still though, when I stop and think about it… is it really that much of a contrast?

The shutdown day project asked that non-autistics stop visiting their social networks and to go silent… which all by itself really is a dumb thing to do.

However, in conjunction with “Autistics Speaking Day”… it’s starting to actually make a lot more sense to me.

If autistics can have a day where they can speak their mind, tell their tales, share their experiences and speak their mind… free of judgments or criticisms from others… well, the whole thing starts to make a lot more sense.

Maybe if “shutdown” was changed to “shut up and listen”, then the two days truly would be the same thing, rather than opposites. Instead of abandoning social networks, if we were encouraged to seek out social networks and find as many autistics as we can that are sharing something today and just listened rather than putting in our own 2 cents…. maybe November 1st really wouldn’t be all that different from what it was originally supposed to be… maybe it’s just an extension of it.

Perhaps if autistics make an extra, and sometimes difficult, effort to open themselves up to the world and share their experiences and thoughts on Autism, and everyone else made an effort to set aside an hour or two to seek those autistics out, and really just listened, we would finally have a day that made perfect sense.

So, if you have Autism, I encourage you to take part in “Autistics Speaking Day” today, November 1st.

And if you do not have Autism, I encourage you to seek out some autistics on Twitter, Facebook or even in good ole Google search and spend a little time reading today.

The more that is shared and the more people listen, the greater the opportunity for understanding and acceptance for all people with Autism.

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The common, not so common, issues

By on October 18, 2011 in Autism

One of the problems I often encounter when discussion Autism with someone that does not know much about Autism is overcoming their need to relate.

Which sounds really odd, doesn’t it?

The Problem

Here’s the problem: for every sign of Autism that I explain, the response is often “but a lot of kids do that”.

And when that happens, you kind of have to go…  “yeah… a lot of kids do do that, but not like this and not with the combination of all of the other things my child does.”

Here’s a quick laundry list of Autism symptoms, off the top of my head, where “a lot of kids do that”:

  • meltdowns
  • not listening/ignoring
  • get aggressive
  • get bullied
  • be shy
  • picky eating
  • have trouble sleeping at night
  • speaking delayed
  • miss milestones
  • be repetitive
  • need routine
  • wander off/elope
  • refuse to look you in the eye
  • be brilliant

The list goes on and on… and when your child is having an issue with one of those things and you mention it to someone, often times the response is “yeah but a lot of kids do that.”

Understanding

same but differentThis is why the DSM tends to combine signs, meaning that your child has to have several signs and meet several areas of criteria in order to qualify for an Autism diagnosis.

The truth is, they’re not wrong. A lot of kids do that!

Here’s the thing… most kids go through phases, most kids don’t do these things to the same extent or severity and most kids don’t do many of these things all at the same time… making it a fully quantifiable disability.

And that is what is so maddening when someone responds to me with “but a lot of kids do that”.

It’s a struggle to admit that they’re not wrong and yet they’re so far off base at the same time… how do you explain that without upsetting them? Especially those stubborn family members that are so certain they’ve “been there, done that” and that you’re just young and “finding out what it’s like”.

See, I can see you sneering right now because we all have those family members.

In these cases, it’s best to remember the 3 key points that make your experience different from theirs:

  1. Most kids go through phases. Autism is for life.
  2. Most kids do these things to varying degrees. Autism tends to be all or nothing.. to the extreme.
  3. Most kids do these things one or two at a time. Autism means that several or even all of these signs are present.

If you really want to throw it in their face, you can add a fourth point… that their children were just brats and yours has an actual disability. This often results in a discussion about how much medical experts know and don’t know vs now and then, how they just have to give everything a name these days and so on… so it may be best left out.

Chances are, if you’re like me, it will really bug you every time you hear “but a lot of kids do that” but you have to remember that they mean well. They’re either trying to relate what you’re saying to what they know or they’re just trying to show their support, in their own weird way. That they “understand” what you’re saying because they’ve seen it.

Then you can hand them the gluten free food and/or therapy bills and say “consider yourself lucky that not a lot of kids do that”.

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When apples talk to oranges about steak

By on September 26, 2011 in Autism

I’m sure you’re aware by now of the dialogue going on over at The Thinking Person’s Guide to Autism, and if not… it’s probably a good time to give it a once over. Keep in mind that there are some very long posts and, depending on when you read this, more coming soon… make sure you set aside some time before popping over.

I’ve been biting my tongue through this “dialogue” for a variety of reasons. If you don’t want to go into it with any preconceived notions from yours truly, go there now before reading my post.

How this all started

Let’s just be clear on where this all originated. The “non-disabled parent” wrote a post (that you can read here) about an imaginary parent going to a movie that made rude remarks about Down Syndrome and used the R word and so forth… he imagined how that parent would feel if that parent had a child with Down Syndrome and had to hear this in the movie and all the rest of the audience laughing at it.

In response, the “disabled adult” (autistic) took great offense (you can read it here) to this in that he can’t possibly know what it’s like to be disabled and has no right to be so offended.

Obviously this is a very short summary and I’m paraphrasing, so please feel free to read those two posts to understand exactly what transpired.

But to reiterate… there is now a “discussion” about what parents can and can’t understand, can and can’t discuss and who the real “advocates” are… based on a parent writing about how another (imaginary) parent might have felt.

He didn’t imagine himself being a child with Down Syndrome… he wrote about how a fellow parent might feel.

Apple, meet orange… begin discussion about steak.

Where does this discussion lead?

Hopefully to a good place, hopefully some really good mutual understanding and maybe… if we’re really lucky, even teamwork toward the future will come of this.

However, there’s always different people who find different meanings from all things and therefore, there may also be some much more… well, I would call them “less positive” possible outcomes.

As one person linked to the discussions, I replied to their link saying that I’m biting my tongue.

A woman replied to me, this is what she wrote:

Me: Autistic parent of an autistic child
I’ll comment on this tomorrow

Person without a disability
Why can’t you just come out and say it?

I did not reply to her, I once again bit my tongue because I did not see any possible good outcome from a discussion that begins in that tone.

Still, I really wanted to ask… Is this how we are to address each other from here on out? Is this truly what it’s coming to? Are we, two groups who are fighting the labels that people place on us, going to now refer to each other using labels?

What’s better is… this woman has no idea if I have Autism or not. This was a completely presumptuous reply based on my “biting my tongue” comment.

Is this truly the road we’re going to go down? Is this going to be a benefit to anyone?

Communities?

Adding to the further separation and division, adding to the need to be labeling people in the effort to come together and abolish labels… we now have the Autism Community, Autistic Community, Disability Community and Non-Disability Community… and those who feel that some people belong in multiple communities while others don’t belong in any communities at all.

What does this all mean?

As a group, we’re asking society for acceptance of those that are different… yet we can’t even accept the differences in each other.

We fumble over ourselves declaring superiority, inferiority, privilege, rights, responsiblities and more… in an effort to separate and divide ourselves, to judge one another, label each other and “feel about” each other… all the while telling outside observers to simply accept the differences within us all: gender, race, income, special needs, etc.

You might as well get money management advice from a random homeless person.

Steak

The meat of the discussion, which everyone is discussing but few can seem to agree on, is that we need to listen to each other, talk to each other and work together.

There’s an old saying… “Believe in yourself and others will believe in you too“. In this case, we have to accept each other so that others will accept us as well.

And by us, I don’t mean “non-disabled parents”, I don’t mean “disabled adults”… I mean us. All of us. Advocates. People. Human beings.

Telling each other to shut up or to speak up or what to say or what not say is not the best message to send to the world, it’s not the lesson we wish of others to learn, it’s not the example we need to set.

We all have a vision of how best to educate the world, we all have a vision of how everything would work the best… we all have our own visions. That’s part of what makes us all unique. Those visions all come from having a different life, different experience, different education, different soul…

So long as our visions create conflict, none of them will ever come to life. And it won’t be society’s fault. It will be our own.

Apples and Oranges are different, but they’re both good for the world. They both grow, reproduce, respond well to proper caring and nurturing… and at the end of the day, they’re both fruits.

In fact, maybe they’re not so different after all.

I really hope for the best in these discussions so that we can accept each others differences, rejoice in our commonalities and find a way to work together in educating others how to do the same.

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Who has a right to talk about Autism?

By on September 17, 2011 in Autism

Recently, Rob from Lost and Tired wrote a blog post called “We’re on the same team….right?” which, the title pretty much speaks for itself. And I’ve often written about how it seems that no matter what you say, someone will object to it. Someone will be offended and someone will hate you for it.

Sadly, that’s just the reality of putting yourself out there. People have differing opinions, and the more readers you get, the more likely you are to find them.

However, more and more recently, I’ve been encountering people with Autism that feel that no one has a right to even mention Autism without having Autism themselves.

Who has right to talk about Autism?

no voiceIn the post I mentioned, one person commented, basically stating that if you don’t have Autism, you can’t talk about it. If you went to check it out, you saw my reply, which wasn’t very professional but as I wrote and wrote, I quickly realized that I couldn’t possibly fit all of my thoughts into one comment on a blog post.

The comment in question is this:

i have the exact same issue – to me – people who DO NOT have autism have absolutely NO RIGHT to OPEN THEIR MOUTH because they do not have it themselves – and do not know crap about what it is like to have the condition, the social rejection of it, and so much more that it makes my head spin. i have the exact same issue with people who go to college to teach special needs / special ed when they ARE NOT special needs themselves !!!

I don’t know if he was being serious or referring to how some people have been in the past, but I have encountered this sort of thing enough myself. So either way, I thought I’d write about it here.

While I do understand the sentiment, I do understand where this person is coming from, I also can’t help but think that this is extremely counter productive, hypocritical and even rude in a way. Now don’t take the last few parts and skip the rest, as I said.. I do understand where he is coming from and why he’d say it. I just want to be able to explain why that’s not a healthy stance to take.

Parents

First of all, to tell parents that they can’t speak for their children is likely to get you into a lot of trouble. Parents are very protective of their children, it’s an animal kingdom thing, it’s instinctual and no one had better tell a parent that they have no right to speak up or protect their child.

I want for my child to not be bullied, I want for people to accept my child for who he is, I want for my child to have a fair chance in school, work and life in general… I want the best possible life for my child.

To tell me that I can’t try to speak up for that, simply because he has Autism and I don’t, is a bit rude.

Am I to sit on my butt, let him be bullied at school, learn nothing and have no help…. and just hope for the best? Because I have no right to speak up?

Understanding and Acceptance

The whole goal of raising awareness is such that people that know nothing about Autism can not only understand it, but also come to accept the people that have it. Meaning more jobs, better services, less judgments.

But how can people be expected to do that if they have no right to ever discuss it? How can there ever be an understanding? If only autistics can understand it, then there’s no point in explaining it or raising awareness of it and if there’s no point in that, then there will never be acceptance.

True, most people will never truly understand and it’s also true that most people will never fully accept it… but is that really what is needed? Or is it good enough that people understand it enough to be more accepting, enough to stop judging those that are different… enough to stop bullying or denying them based on what they don’t have and may never fully understand?

No thanks, I don’t need your army to win the war

While I do rather hate the war analogy that some people make in reference to Autism (usually in reference to pharma companies), but in this case, I think it fits… in the war on awareness, understanding and acceptance.

I mean, think about it. At 1 in 110 (or so, depending on where you are), you have a relatively small portion of the population fighting for services, acceptance and a fair chance getting what others take for granted, such as less judgments, struggles, bullying and so forth.

But if you could recruit your parents, grandparents, other loved ones, friends, family, charities, teachers and others to help you, to fight with you…. wouldn’t you want that? In fact, wouldn’t that be exactly what it is that you’re fighting for?

Not for them to necessarily understand “exactly” what you’re going through but to support you, to back you up and to speak up to reach all of the people that you can’t reach yourself?

Neurodiversity

One time, a person with Autism suggested (more or less inquired really) if it would be a good idea to have two groups, one with Autism being self advocates and one for others, such as parents. Which, on the surface makes some sense as people with Autism feel as though they’re foreigners to us and we can’t possibly understand exactly what it means to have Autism….  however, I feel that it kind of defeats the purpose of neurodiversity.

The whole point is, I think, to bring different people, who think diffrently, together and be considered equals with differences. That we accept each other, without judgment, that neither is superior, neither is inferior… we’re simply the same but different, if that makes any sense.

So to split us up based on our differences, in an effort to unite us… seems counter productive.

Awareness for all

To achieve the goal of learning about Autism, in understanding how it affects people (quite differently I might add), how to reduce the bullying, judgments and struggles of people with Autism… we must all speak out.

Positive, supportive and unified. Working together toward a common goal.

If you have Autism, you have to remember… that special ed teacher that speaks up, that parent that fights for services, that charity that raises money… it’s for you. It may be misguided sometimes, it may be without a complete understanding and it may even be wrong in some cases, but it’s the best they can do, for you and for all with Autism… especially their loved ones.

We all have a right to want what is best for the ones we love. We all have a right to wish for less hunger, less war, less racism and all of the things that we, as humans should be over by now. That includes discrimination towards people with special needs.

Whether we are in war, starving or are disabled ourselves… we all have a right to speak, because if we don’t, we are nothing.

What I’m trying to say is…

While I do believe that we all have the right to fight for what we believe in, especially when loved ones are involved, what I’m really trying to say is…. please don’t shut us out.

Please let us help. Yes, we’ll falter along the way… we’re not perfect and, as is abundantly clear, we can’t possibly know what it’s truly like.. however, as parents and loved ones, we’re the closest thing you have for bridging the gap between two groups that really never should have been separate groups in the first place.

Don’t ask us to hope that our children will one day be able, willing and strong enough to fight for acceptance. It’s our greatest wish that one day, they will… but we can’t possibly put that burden on them… especially if we spend our time together on the sidelines. If we are unable to speak, that is what our children will learn from us. If we are unable to stand up for what we believe in, we can’t possibly force that responsibility on our children.

Autism is your world. My child is my world.. and my child has Autism.

Let us help our children. Let us help you. And forgive us our mistakes.

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